"We have been reminded so many times of the words of Jesus: “I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” (Matthew 17:20)
There are more days than not that this advice is difficult for me to hear. It is hard to focus during prayer, my mind wanders to all of the things that are going wrong in the world (and, sometimes, my life), I have difficult emotions to deal with, and on and on the list goes. We know that Jesus would not have said these words if they were not true. But, so often, we shift this saying into the column of: “advice for those who have it all together “or “advice for the holy ones”. It is easy to dismiss this verse and stop paying attention altogether.
I also experience days when the faith journey is smooth and my burdens are light. Prayer comes easily and there is much peace and a true sense of God’s presence. On these days, when the wind is at my back, I can easily feel as though God will move mountains at my request. But these days are few and far between." Excerpt from Vibrant Faith: Finding the Extraordinary in the Ordinary.
Vibrant Faith starts as a seed that is sown by the One who loves us most. We must dedicate time allowing Him to till the soil of our soul so that the seed of faith can take root, germinate, begin to sprout. Pondering Scripture, participating in the Eucharist, discussions with Spiritual Sisters, sacrifices of our time, and generosity of heart are all ways that we partner with Jesus in growing our faith in Him.
How often, when I am distracted by life do I beat myself up over being more of a prayer wimp than a prayer warrior? When I waste my mental energy focused on all of the ways that I don't measure up to my false image of who I think God wants me to be, I lose valuable time that could be spent growing instead of wilting.
Instead of being overwhelmed, I know that what I really need is rest. I truly believe that the days when we are struggling the most, these are the days that He is calling us to trust Him even more. When we are overcome by worry or raw emotion, we need to allow Him to do the heavy lifting and trust that the Holy Spirit is working in our soul, even if we don't quite feel Him. Don't give in to the distraction and use it as an excuse to avoid your daily conversation with Jesus. Pause and recognize that you are right where He wants you to be, thank Him for your mustard seed.